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For you, Dad

Photo captured 12/21/2008
December 23rd, 2008.
You were shoveling snow,
The white slushy snow. 
You expressed once, "my back hurts" 
Smoking your last cigarette of the night,
In the cold, dark garage. 
You expressed twice, "my back hurts" 
Finally saying, "goodnight" and went up to bed.
December 23rd, 2008.
The day I found you lying on your back, gasping for air.
The day I was told you wouldn't be coming home. 
December 23rd, 2008. 
The day I lost one of my favorite humans. 
You were funny, you were kind, and you always knew what to say. 
Your laugh. 
The laugh that put a smile on everyone's face. 
All the music, 
All the cleaning, 
All the Sunday morning breakfasts, 
Everything. 
I wish I could call you, ask you for advice, just hear your voice one last time. 
December 23rd, 2008.
The last time we said "goodnight".
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Thank you for 10 years of parenting. Thank you for the memories. Thank you for your hard work, your ability to be a role model, and most importantly... for sharing your love that I wish everyone in my life was able to experience. 

I love you forever, Dad. 

ps. Don't forget to say "I love you" to someone you care about this holiday season. You seriously never know when the last time will be. 

    

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